you know who you are
12:30 a.m. on 2007-05-26
i wanna take back my word. i dont like saying i'm going to do something, or not do something in this case, and then do the opposite, but i can't let things happen like this... i'm incredibly upset with how things are happening, and while i do feel i've done all i can, i still wanna try to do more... how much more could i do? what should i do? do i let go of a friend that i thought i'd have forever? i think i've done nothing wrong in the situation, which makes things even MORE difficult. i played along, i didn't make the first move... i didn't fight it, i admit i wanted it and had fun. maybe i should tell everything that happened... maybe that's what needs to happen, maybe i should cross a line to get the answers i need or at least get a reaction. i'm sure most people know who i'm talking about... i just dont know what to do... any advice?
hoping you still looks at this on occaision so that i dont have to take back my word to get my point across... i do miss you. i'm sorry if you're uncomfortable with what happened, but i still want you as a friend... i dont care what happened, i dont care if it happens again, i dont think i'd let it, just cuz i dont want this shit going on again... what do i have to do to get you to speak to me again? to go back to being friends? i just wanna hang out, drink, watch movies and play video games! what do i have to get back to where things were? i miss having one of my best friends. you know i love you, you know i'm here. i wanna be patient, but fuck, how long is this going to go on??? seriously... i do miss you. i hope you miss me, even a little bit.
