scared... sick... helpless
12:27 a.m. on 2005-11-27
i'm tired. depressed. going through a lot of shit that i dont feel like going into here... too many people may read this... could read this... if you wanna know, call me. MAYBE i'll tell you. i'm just scared and feeling really bad.... i've been crying at the drop of a hat (what else is new) i've been tired and sick (again, anything new?) but the reasons behind all of this are something i've never really gone through before... i'm so scared. i feel like i can't tell anyone though... especially since nothing is certain yet... but i'm fairly sure... well, i guess i can't be... but bah. if i keep talking i'm sure i'll spill... but agh... maybe i'll jinx it... but i dont know if that's good or bad... fuck. i need help.
