moving through peanut butter
3:39 p.m. on 2005-11-10
job hunting sucks. i no longer have medical insurance. i'm on a more strict curfew now than i had when i was in hs (mid on weeknights, 2 on weekends) makes it really hard when i work till 10 some nights. if i dont stick to the curfew, the doors will be locked on me and i can consider myself kicked out. even with more sleep lately i'm exhausted. i feel almost unable to move. i should be cleaning, but i feel like there is something blocking me. i want to clean so i can go out with brian, but i can't move. i'm drowning. i will be moving out soon. as soon as i have another job offer i put in my 2 weeks with nike. or ask them to severely cut my hrs so i can work both at least through the hollidays. i put in an application at a bank. my mother says i'm following in my aunts footsteps to a T. i guess she dropped out of college, got a job as a bank teller and doing that for a year or so gave her the incentive to go back to school and get a degree. well, that's what i want now. the incentive to go to school. right now it almost doesn't seem worth it, tho i know it is in the long run. bah. i think i'm gonna shower and clean. peace.
