seeing shaun...
10:50 p.m. on 2005-06-22
back from VA. lots happened in 3 days. it was great. was SO nice to see shaun again. i hadn't seen that boy since middle school. supposedly he'd had a big ole crush on me when we were little, i always liked his friend steven... but well, he's grown up real well. he's adorable, funny, smart, sweet... i got in on monday, and called my mom and megans mom, both of whom told us we needed to call shaun and hang out with him. we weren't totally looking forward to it other than freaking him out... from what our parents had said about him, he was quite a lil well, hm... i dont even know how to put it, but it seemed he was still in the bubble all of us grew up in. but we were luckily wrong. we got together and drank a lot, talked a lot, finally got back to megans apt, where we watched athf and went to bed, shaun had taken a massage class at school, and he gave me a really nice massage. when he was done we cuddled up real close and finally kissed. it was just really sweet and nice. we spent the night together. it was wonderful waking up to him. i wish i could have more, but his dad was a dick and wouldn't even let him go to megans graduation or to dinner with us since he had stayed out the night before. then he had to leave early this morning to go to rotc field training for a month in south dakota. that also means i can't talk to him online or on the phone. but i can write him letters, which i think i'm gonna start one soon. i was so dissappointed i only got him for one night. and we didn't have sex. *shock* and even bigger shock: i'm ok with that. he's offered to try to get out to see me, and i'll try to go see him. it may be up to a year tho before we get to see each other again. i really hope not tho. i think i'm gonna go write him a letter tho... send him somethin nice so he thinks of me while he's stuck at field camp. i just hope he has the energy to write me back. if he does, i'll know he's still the good guy that i knew way back when. i like his family, i've always liked him, it's just never been as more than a friend... but i think it could work with us (well, if we were closer to each other) who knows tho... guess i'll talk to everyone later.
