i dont trust my judgement...
11:41 p.m. on 2005-06-02
VNV yesterday night. fuckin awesome show. imperative reaction rocked too. plus it was great to spend time with tim. i really do adore that boy. i just need some sort of proof that he cares about me too... i mean, yeah he calls, yeah he says all the right things, but he's never come to see me, i understand that it's a long way and he's gotta get his oil changed and doesn't have a lotta money right now, but neither do i! i'm not saying it's not worth it just so i can see him, and waking up next to him is amazing, but i dont know... i guess i'm just so jaded, i'm not used to anyone caring about me, especially since he doesn't really care about sex... yeah we'll have fun (i'd be worried if we didnt. lol) but he seems to care about more than that... i think he's a good guy for me... but i haven't been the best judge of character... i want him to meet my family, my friends, people that i trust to tell me he's the good guy i think him to be... and well, if they dont think he's good, then i'll know to be careful. bah, i think it's time for bed tho... oh, went to the dr today, gonna get biofeedback sometime soon... hiopefully it'll work... but now, bedtime so i can get up for work tomorrow morning. g'night.
