not worth my time...
1:24 a.m. on 2005-05-11
i'll only draw attention to this once. itdoesn't even deserve this tho... i dont understand why people who dont like what i say read my diary. this is where i come to express MY THOUGHTS, MY OPINIONS, MY FEELINGS. i dont censor myself here, and i really dont give a shit what anyone thinks about what i say. if i did, well, i wouldn't say whatever comes to mind like i do. i know i make an ass of myself regularly here. i dont care. i dont even know what i've written half the time. it's just how i feel at the moment. my opionions about other people: they're still my opinions. i dont care if they're wrong. it's how i see things. never thought the idea of a diary would need to be explained. oh well.. i wont appologize for what i've said. i never will. if you dont like what i say, it's your choice to read this. no one's forcing anyone to read this. doesn't matter to me whether or not i have any readers here. i just like having a place that keeps my thoughts organized and looks good. so, one last time: it's your choice to read this, like it or not, this is my sights and i do it for myself, no one else. click the little x if ya dont like it. thanks. now that i'm done with that... i'm fuckin crampy and miserable. bah. i hate pms. talked to justin more today. totally made me happy. he likes to joke about how he likes his women like he likes his coffee, ground up and in the freezer. i asked if that's how he wanted me, and he said that he liked me how he would like his coffee, with enough sugar to be jumpin all night long. teehee. i told him i'd keep him up for weeks next time we see each other. i can't wait to see him. we also discoverd that we've known each other for almost exactly a year now. may 14th we started talking on myspace. started out just talkin music, he came over for a few drinks, music was discussed a lot more, we just talked and talked, and finally he kissed me. he's adorable and i know we'll do fine together when we move. even if we do break up i think we're both the types of people and our relationship is such that we'd still be able to be friends if not even still live together. i can't wait to just see him again tho. just get wrapped up in his arms. i know i'll never wanna let go. *sighs* bah. i'm so tired but i'm still doin laundry. my sheets are in the drier now. i wanna go to bed now tho!!! *sighs* got a lot to do tomorrow. gotta take my sis to school tomorrow (she's gonna buy me coffee so i do it) then i gotta clean, go to goodwill to donate a lot of clothes, then go to the ymca to see if i can get a few hrs at the summer camp. i'm htinkin it could work real well if i work at the y from 6:30-noon, then nike from 1-10. it'll be hell, but i need the money. but yeah, now i'm gonna go check on my laundry. g'night.
