lonely....
3:21 a.m. on 2005-04-23
i want someone to cuddle with. every night the same thing happens. i talk to one friend from work, and my friend justin in vegas. i get very lonely and depressed, and go to bed very sad and all alone. justin and i may move in together in vegas after his tour. that would make me real happy. i adore this boy and he makes me very happy. he told me he loves me like he loves shredded cheese (i never said he was a normal guy... part of his charm) and i was being all emo and self concious and he told me "yeah, you could stand to loose 20 lbs last i saw you, but you're still fuckin hot." i love and miss this boy like crazy. but he's got something i dont, while he's waiting, he has a gf. it's short term and they both know it, but i wish i had something like that too. i want to feel needed. i want to feel wanted. after all this shit with kyle i need to know that i'm good enough... i dont feel like i am. i mean, i know i'm TOO good for kyle. i dont deserve his shit, but i dont know, i just want attention that badly... somebody slap me. i know i deserve it. i need a hug... someone to cuddle with, make out with... *sighs*
