depressed for no reason...
1:43 a.m. on 2005-04-16
depressed. really feel like cutting. but i wont. i'm bound and determined not to do that. i want to avoid it for as long as possible. and sorry if my spelling and all sucks ass, i'm trying to fix stuff, but i'm drunk and stoned. fuck. i dont know what sent me into this funk... but i went out to my car for a cig, and i was trying to call people and couldnt get ahold of anyone and i just got really sad... i think i'm gonna go to bed now. i feel like crying... it's been a while since i did that, so it's prolly a good thing. good night.
