this isn't me...
11:33 a.m. on 2005-04-12
i've been in a really wierd place right now emotionally... just strange... like, really depressed, not wanting to do anything, but knowing i should and still wanting to at the same time... but i feel almost too late with a lot... i dont know what to do... but just talking to some of my friends or thinking about them make me happy... i mean, i finally met carly, and she is one of the coolest girls i know... gary's always been cool, i've met some awesome people at work that i'd love to hang out with outside of work. but then there are my friends from vegas. al, sue, chris and alex i still talk to, but the girls from the dorms dont call, never write, i've tried talking to them on aim when they're on, but i dont get a reply. pisses me off. then there's kyle. i love him to death, but he probably is bad for me. mike (one of my friends from work) tries to tell me this almost daily), mike is also the only one at work who'll remind me of my breaks. he knows my schedule better than i do. fuck, he was able to tell me i have friday off and i didn't even know that! but yeah... now i need to go get ready for work. *yawn* maybe i'll try to go do something fun after work... who knows... i dont feel like myself.
