good and bad
10:47 a.m. on 2005-04-08
procrastinating on gettin ready for work... i'm tired and have a headache. went to the dr. yesterday. got new meds for the headaches. if these dont work i go to the neurologist cuz this dr. is out of ideas. nice, huh? he was really suprised and i dont think he believed me when i told him some of the meds i'd been on hadn't worked. um, i'd still be takin them and wouldn't be here if they did work. thanks. hopefully what i've got now will tho... *crosses fingers* hung out with gary and cary the other day. that was fun. i'm glad i'm getting to know carly. she got her tongue pierced like mine and her tattoo on her ankle finished. they both look awesome. i can't wait to see them more healed. i got my hood re-pierced. piercing scar tissue SUCKS ASS. it hurt so much more than the first time. and the guy didn't go through very much skin... not as much as i remember it being last time... and he wanted to put a straight barbell in... i know before it had been like a belly ring or eyebrow ring... curved, so he curved the jewelry, and it looks pretty good, but i dont think it looks as good as it did the first time. oh well. i stil llike it. kyle and i got into a fight. i guess i had invited him to go with gary, carly and i to the piercing place, and i forgot, so he called when he got off work, asked what i was up to and i told him i was about to get pierced, he told me to have fun and call him later. i said i would, and we hung up... he texted me with "you're cool" i asked what, he said whatever, that i shouldn't invite him to hang out then "forget" to call. i got pissed. i told him that i did forget, that he didn't seem interested in going anyways and that it's not like we had talked since then... and for him to call when he was done being petty. he tried calling, i didn't answer... i ended up calling him back, this time he didn't answer and i left him a message saying that i was sick of this, sick of how if he didn't call, it was ok cuz he had to work and was tired, but if i didn't call, i was being a bitch or a brat. he ended up calling back and we talked, well, talking isn't very accurate... arguing more like it... him sayin that he never wanted to talk to me again, to have a nice life, that he hopes i make it back to vegas, me begging him not to do this... why i did that i dont know... i shouldn't have... i mean, it's not a healthy relationship, even as a friendship... we talked about how we shouldn't act like a couple when we aren't (i agreed) he said he'd call in a while... when he's ready or somethin... i ended up talking to my friend al in vegas about it and he told me i'm not allowed to see little boys here. i can molest and fuck all the lil boys i want, but i can't date anyone under 25 here. i hafta add 2 yrs onto my age cuz i'm a girl, then another 2 yrs on cuz i lived in vegas, and he said we wouldn't even go into adding on for me being of above average inteligence. can ya see why i love this guy? lol. he and his wife are both so good to me. but yeah... i need to get all this shit squared away with kyle. i do care about him a lot. but al was also saying that kyle obvoiusly isn't mature enough... i mean, as soon as i stuck up for my feelings, he ran. i become the bitch as soon as i stick up for myself. that's really not right... but i can already tell ya what's gonna happen when i do talk to kyle, he's gonna tell me something that i didn't know, something that will make it all ok, something that may or may not be true, but it'll be something that logically makes up for his behavior, and i should forgive him for it, and i will, being the sap i am... and it'll start all over again. but this cycle will be over when we move. Don't Panic: in good news tho, Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy comes out early!!! April 29!!! today i'm requesting that day off. or at least to work the later shift so i can go to the first showing... i wonder if there'll be a midnight showing??? who wants to come with me??? i seriouslly cannot wait. my towel is ready. AHHHHHHH!
