maybe if i shot myself in the head i'd feel better...
11:57 a.m. on 2005-03-09
well, my mri was totally normal. but i have mixed emotions about that. yeah, it's cool i dont have a tumor or anything, but now i'm back at the begining. no one has ANY idea what these headaches are caused by and why they wont go away. i'm gonna hafta go off my birth control so i can try new meds... i just want to know what's wrong with me!!! i hate these headaches. last night i went to bed at 9 because i was in so much pain i couldn't move. everything hurts and nothing helps. i dont want to live my life in constant pain. the headaches dont ever subside anymore. they get a little better, but are ALWAYS with me. i hurt so much, and nothing helps. the drs plan right now is lets try all these meds and see what works without making you dizzy/shakey/zombieish. i was almost hoping for something in the mri just so that they would know what to do. i mean, drs know how to treat a tumor. they can make cancer go into remission. they can't do shit about something that they dont even know what it is! all they can do is randomly try meds and see what works. so far everything has failed miserably. fuck. now i've gotta go into work and deal with stupid people all day. tomorrow i try to get an appt with the dr again to try more meds, then i get my hair cut. yay.
