fuck it all...
10:52 a.m. on 2005-01-27
going back into my old routine again... and not in a good way. i have trouble getting out of bed in the morning (or just showering so that i can get ou and do anything) and i can't sleep at night. great. i dont wanna see a dr. i dont wanna really do anything but sit around inside all day, wallow in self pitty. i hate this shit, but i dont know any other way. is it obvious i'm not taking my meds? would anything change if i was to take them??? i hate this. i dont know what to do. i'm sposed to go to the bank, go to ppcc, and eventually hang out with kyle today. i'd like to hang out with kyle... but i haftado the other stuff first... and i really dont want to have to talk and he hates it when i dont talk. i'm just not in the mood to be social. i think i'm gonna go back up to my bed and read. *sighs*
