job hunting sucks. and so do boys.
11:27 p.m. on 2005-01-25
have a headache. again. least this one waited most of the day to rear its ugly head, then receded a bit so i could hang out with kyle, and now has come back worse than ever. but yeah... it sucks. so, work news: group interview on saturday. WTF? a group interview? for a host job??? i guess there are 4 people who want one job... they seem to be looking at me for weekends only... so, i started upin the search for other jobs... so, i applied for a job at the nike outlet and at a bookstore. hopefully i get a call soon... like... tomorrow... so, hung out with kyle... that was interesting... while we're driving around, he first asks advice about hitting on girls... not cool. lol. unless of course he's wanting to be hitting on me... but that didn't seem like what he was asking about... then he got all pissy that i wasn't talking (hello, i dont talk! get over it.) i've told him time and again that he can start a conversation and i'll keep it up best i can, but that's about all i can promise... so, once we got talking all was good, we still have plans to see hide and seek on friday... i'm tryin to think of how to bring up the whole "us" subject... i hate this shit... i like him a lot... but i dont know... maybe i fucked up too bad last time... i hope not... i was hoping for a goodnight kiss or somethin... but he's sick, so he's got an excuse there... gah. maybe i'm reading too far into this... maybe i should just enjoy spending time with him, and just go with it... maybe it also hasta do with the fact that he knows i'm leaving in may/june... maybe he doesn't see that as really worth it... *shrugs* i need to stop thinkin so much. i should've smoked tonight. damn. then i wouldnt' be thinkin. lol. but yeah... i think i'm done here... laterz.
