is winter break over yet???
11:08 p.m. on 2004-12-27
work sucks... only had 10 kids in today, but they were brats... gah. why is it when the day should be so easy that the stupid kids hafta make it hard??? we were making lil pine cone creatures and i burnt the shit out of my finger cuz guess who they put in charge of the hot glue gun?? i was talking to sam, and he pointed out, "i love you to death, but you're the last person i'd let near a hot glue gun" yeah... it's true... i shouldn't go near it... *shrugs* so, i have a lovely little (well, not so little) blister on 2 of my fingers. yeah, i stupidly decided once the glue was on one finger, to whipe it onto another... way to go me. so, tomorrow, i work again, and on thursday, then i go to kansas for new years. oh joy of joys. gonna try to find a club i can get out to... i really dont wanna be stuck in... i mean, ya know what they say, what you do new yrs eve determines what you'll do for the rest of the year... i dont want it to be fuckin bored out of my mind. last year i spent it with 2 close friends. and well, i've had an ok yr... well, not really... but it hasn't been bad, and i survived. lol. been really depressed, but still functional... not really understanding anything going on in my mind right now, and it's affcting my body as well... wierd moods, wierd feelings... just overall unease being home... maybe it would help if i took my meds... but i really dont want to for some reason... i mean, i know that they are supposed to help, but i hate taking meds. always have. i know i dont get better without them, but... *sighs* i dont even know... and i should go to bed now... not tired, but i gotta get up to get to work tomorrow... gah... i just hope the kids are better tomorrow... grrrrrrr... i wanted to kill one little girl today... gah... but, yeah, shoud take some cold meds and pass out... i hate being sick, and it seems i'm sick all the fucking time... and being sick makes my septum hurt even worse... ickyness. well, g'night.
