since i'm just a "little girl"
3:39 a.m. on 2004-11-12
i'm drunk. just got back from the club... i'm sick too... i hate drama... even tho it's not quite elevated to drama status... so, devil lock boy (brandon) came up to me and we flirted when i first got to the club, he asked if i had plans for after, i said i didn't think so, he told me he might have something in mind, and it was pretty much left at that, we flirted a bit more, but a while later he went and started talking to this preppy girl wearing an abercrombie sweatshirt (to a goth club?!?!?!?) and they talked the rest of the night, from what i hear they also made out a lot... so, one of his friends who had been flirting a lot with gaby i guess went and "had a little talk" with him, and got really pissed... i dont understand why people dont think i can take care of myself!!! from what i hear both mike and chris did the same thing too!!! wtf??? i dont get why they feel the need to take care of me... there is NOTHING between him and i, not yet, and i dont know if there ever will be, for now, i just see him as a conquest. he is beautiful and fun to talk to and play with. but damn, now even mike's in my business? trying to take care of me with the guy i'm wantin to hang out with? doesn't make sense... same with chris... i mean, it's not like i even talk about this boy... whatever... i'm really tired right now, and i'm sick... so i should get some sleep... i can't go to english tomorrow cuz a rough draft for a paper is due and i haven't even started on it... i wish i could get it done, but i know i can't... fuck... there is so much i need to do tomorrow... i dont even want to think about it...
