what have i done??
12:04 p.m. on 2004-11-03
i did it... i wrote the email... and i sent it... now it's time for the waiting game... i'm so scared... it's crossed my mind a million times to just admit myself back to the hospital... to not have to deal with anything... but the hospital didnt help... not in the long run... i didn't learn anything that stuck with me, that has helped me out at all... i really do want to get better tho... hopefully this will help me... i text messaged both chris and mike after i sent my mom the email, asking if they were up and telling them to call or write if they were... both responded this morning... chris at 6:30 and mike about 11:15. i dont think either know what to do, think or say... chris told bryan who text messaged me a little bit ago... i'm scared. i have no idea what's going to happen... i wish i had someone who would just sit through this with me... fuck... what have i gotten myself into???
